Depression

hits me straight on
no notice, no warning
only a dark hollow feeling inside
like i'm merely an observer.
a non-participant in the day.

the smile on my face is plastic
i all but hear what you are saying
because i am consumed by this hollowness within me
the frozen in time feeling
of not really mattering

not contributing
only being here
present in body
but not in spirit
because my spirit is hiding around the corner
behind the happiness that i felt yesterday

if i let it out
who knows what
what is it hiding from
am i completely nuts
a broken and rejected part of someone's past

why do you haunt me
how can you know me
will you reject me
will i be alone
again