Friday, September 09, 1994

Because

Because when we make agreements
he doesn't honor them

Because when we need things
he doesn't provide them

Because he doesn't make amends
only words

Because he doesn't believe he needs to
because he doesn't believe we need him

Because of him we're here
depending on ourselves

Thursday, September 08, 1994

Love Is All You Need

What do you have to offer me
how can you provide
do you expect that I'll provide
do you think that's right

You say you still have feelings
one of which is anger
you say you tried to make amends
with cards that say God Bless You

Are words enough to make amends
how do words provide
all the needs that must be met
are met without your help

But deep inside my love burns strong
an eternal flame
no matter how I know fairness
that love remains the same

Yet I stay here and you stay there
you don't provide you won't provide
you want want want
and so do I

So what is right what is right
all my life I heard
that love is all you need
it conquers all it never dies

And now it's business too
it must provide to work
destruction brought it down
support will build it up

So why do you neglect ignore
instead of help and care
do you know not how to love
or are you just not there

So we're apart though I still love
it can't sustain itself
without support to build it up
it stays here on the shelf

All you do is great for you
is that what you want
because you don't provide for love
it's safe here in my heart

No matter how this all works out
my love for you won't die
even if we stay apart
I'm always at your side

Wednesday, September 07, 1994

It's Permanent

It's Permanent
forever
that's the hardest thing

When hope is gone
my mind searches for it still
forever gone

No way can't be
or is it really is it
is it gone forever

Will I love you forever
how can I live with this
I want you and I can't have you

You're gone forever
so gone so gone

Monday, September 05, 1994

What a Pain

I won't hurt you
so why am I shivering
trapped can't get out

Sorry mister
I'm confused
didn't you say you care
you love

Doesn't that feel like floating on air

I'm drowning
where's the life jacket

Pull me out
get me away

It hurts
it frightens
please stop it and love me

Give me space
give me air
to float on a cloud of hope

I want joy and compassion
fun and laughter
understanding and support

Forgive me but is that too much

17 years half of my life
you've been a part of me

When I'm 64
will I say anymore?

Disintegration

It works for awhile
then it all crashes in
is there a safety net
a safe haven

Where do I go
what do I do
how do I cope
when you're not you

How do we talk
when you don't listen
how how how
can you answer me now

Besides saying
I need a course in communication
come on is that fair
it takes two

Don't close me out
don't laugh at me
don't you care
part of me is you

Isn't love a feeling
of floating on air

Even when I say you
instead of I
you must see that
I try to share

I try to understand
all I ask
is that you care to hear
and show me you're there